What a timing

This isn't helping at all.

Received a letter from HDB yesterday (after an appeal made to our MP last month) that they only allow us up to 20th Dec next month for the next key collection date. Failing which, will cost us $2,112 every month after that as a penalty cost.

Seriously?

I'm already having trouble trying to direct latch Adriaan recently. Somehow, I feel my supply has dipped. Not sure what is causing it - stress or not eating proper or both.

Tired beyond words.

Sometimes, I just feel like switching to FM and deny him all the goodness of "liquid gold" that everyone talks about. It's more costly, but so much easier. I don't have to deal with latching him every hour, I don't have to deal with cracked & sore nipples. I don't have to deal with pumping anymore. But that's just selfish. And with the stress with regards to our home mortgage, really, it's not helping at all.

Kinda hate being in my own shoes right now. Sigh.

*resumes looking for jobs*

Someone, just hire me please? #desperate

All about you

Here I am, seated at the corner of my bed, feeding my son, while staring at his cot right across the room, and then scanning to the right side of our room to his stash of Mamypoko diapers, still left untouched.

Trying to find my sanity back.

My husband went to run some errands and he asked if it's ok to have his hair cut.

"Go ahead. Have some me-time", I replied.

No, I was sincere (if you smell some sarcasm there lol).

He has helped me a lot in managing our little human, I believe he deserves some me-time for himself.

On the other hand, I'm at home, trying to question my existence and ermm asked if we have made the right decision when we wanted to conceive. Kidding!!!

A part of me misses my time with my husband, alone. When I asked him to go ahead and have his own me-time, he replied that me-time is out to the movies with me. Where does that leave Adriaan to right? Lol.

Of course, we have to forego any fancy idea of couple date at this moment now (for a few months at least!) until...errr we really need a time-out to stay sane.

Our lives have changed a hundred and eighty degrees - everything is about Adriaan now. I frequent my Safari visits to Qoo10 and Lazada to buy baby stuff for Adriaan. I wake up at night every 2 hours for Adriaan. Even my eye bags spells Adriaan. Hahaha. Poor me! *cries*

But yeah, who am I kidding! This little human, despite testing our patience with his screeching cries, we still love him big time. I hope he feels it.

Do you, Adriaan?

"No, mummy. I am only thinking of milk". 

Okayyyyy...

Oh, parenting.

It's one of those nights that you refused to sleep past midnight and you wanted milk but you just had your feed. (Don't want to overfeed & cause bloatedness). So you kept on crying and crying and crying and crying for what seems like a million years. Both of us didn't know what to do & had to succumb & gave you the pacifier as a substitute to comfort latch. Wanted to give you the comfort latch which is the human pacifier, but we still chose not to, in case, instead of comfort latching, you go for the milk & might cause your jaundice to come back. :'(

Tonight is the start of making "next best" alternative decisions for you, for your best interest at heart.